I am still alive.....been in a really bad depression all worried bout xmas....or should I say lack of.  Had to break the news to the boys that we werent doing anything this year, because of lack of funds. Once the bills were paid, nothing was left.

I tried the places that give gifts to kids, but my kids are to old.....so thats out.

My depression is at its worst, I have never been so low in my life and its driving me more insane then I already am.

So on that note I am out.....just wanted to stop in and let ya's know I am still around....Maybe once the new year gets here I will feel better....or at least thats what I am looking forward to!

To those of you who read this, I truely wish with all my heart you have a wonderful holiday season!

*hugzzzz* to you all.